New challenges

There are many twists and turns in our lives. Some times they are seen outward and some times they are inward. Well I have had another trial I am dealing with. That trial is the one thing nobody wants to hear. Last October I was diagnosed with lung cancer. It was not as big a bombshell as it may have been to others. Both my mother and father have passed away due to cancer. The very day i was diagnosed my life started into a whirlwind of Dr. appointments and tests. It was decided that the best way to treat the tumor which was primarily outside my lung, pressing against my spine, thyroid and esophagus. I had been in a lot of pain and they wanted to get me relief for that first, second was to biopsy, start chemo and radiation at the same time. After that was completed I would have surgery, which was quite an experience.
I tell you this now because it has shaped my life in a very special way. I have just passed my 1 year cancer free on January 8, 2009. I have had to learn how to do things different due to nerve damage and problems with my breathing. The surgery was successful and I have recovered very well.
I was unable to do a lot of things that I had to differently and ask for help when needed. I have come through this last year with a renewed faith and belief in the power of love expressed by people when you are ill. I have learned that there are so many things that are far more important than what was placed as a priority before the cancer hit. I look at things differently, The way time spent with my loved ones was changed. I was reminded that life is fragile and that we are not promised another day.
I am not the same person physically or spiritually. God is Good and he has given me more time in this world, but has asked to look to where I can make a difference in others lives. this leading me to where I am right now. Being an advocate for the many people that have lost a loved one to suicide. My hope is that someone will be more able to express their feelings early on in their
grieving process and not wait 16 years to recognize the things that are available to them to help them during their journey.
Mom left behind