If they coud only understand

It's been a while since I've had something I needed to say to my followers. I am now in a place I really don't know how to handle. How do I explain to those close tome that did not know Jason: that there are some things they will never understand. They can not miss someone they have never met. They can not fell the loss of someone that was never there for them. They can never remember the loved one in ways that I do. They can even be insensitive to the feeling, emotions and behaviors that I display.
I want so much to be able to explain to them these things, but to no avail. I don't know if it is because they are unable to have empathy or if they just choose to not see the pain sorrow, loss and emptiness that is within my heart. It does not mean that I have not moved forward and learned to enjoy my my life and appreciate the blessings I have in my life, including them. I am so sorry that they did not know my special boy, Jason. I know that had they known him they would have the understanding of what I go through. I will always have times of feeling the loss of Jason. I will miss him until I see him again in eternity.
I just needed to write this and maybe someone else is feeling the same things.